Well I’ve certainly come a long ways from last year, thanks to hard work and patients. In 2009 my business finally collapsed, just nothing coming in, I admitted that the life I had enjoyed was over. I hadn’t even pickup a camera in over a year and I was scrounging for any mean of support I could find. I’d have robbed banks if I was able to run fast enough to get away, and my right leg was a defiant no go. So I turned to the only weapon I could count on, my brain.
I call my friend network to find out what was available, how could I work out a spot for me. As luck would have it I found a friend who was in need of help restarting a business after a messy divorce. He was down to being a one man shop with only one client left but he wasn’t ready to give up yet. The only catch was it didn’t pay much but if I helped him to recover it might pay more. So at this point it’s still paying not too much, but I can pay my bills, I’m working on catching up on my rent and I have a couple of bucks to tide me over. We’ve got two clients for next year and a third just need to be sold on our services. So all in all I’m not doing so bad, the economy is improving slowly, but it beats being out on the street. So far I haven’t been able to afford to pick up that camera yet, but I’m hoping that next year will be better.
I’ve been encouraged enough to play around with PS, just sort of doodling and seeing what work and what doesn’t, what’s pleasing to the eye and what isn’t. I’m also playing around with some printing idea, off the wall kind of stuff. That with some shooting idea, poses I’d like to try and see which work and which don’t. Have to find a model who’s willing to play and create and is willing to do it for trade if I can sell the idea. I’m sort of back to being a starving artist concept for real this time, not that I wasn’t before, but now I mean it. Of course the best model’s are being paid for there work and most of the new ones want something for they’re time and effort. So do I really, but it just not there right now, and to get there I still need to call on some of my friends.
That’s the good thing about being well known in this business, having friends that you can call on for help and advice. I’m starting to finally make some headway on that score. I’m starting to feel better and more positive about where I am going. I feel like myself again, I can work and not at cutting yards or greeting someone at Wallmart. I’m finally getting myself back, getting my nerve back and being who I was again..., slower granted but it me again. I always liked myself, now I’m beginning to feel like myself again. Making friends and talking again off the cuff again like I always did. You never value something till you lose it.
